Perfect?

So this morning we had a cousin day and we all went out to eat at Red Robin. It was really good and really fun and then when we got back, we were playing on the Wii until Kim had to go and Jeffrey had to go to school. There was hardly any tension and it felt great because it was just like old times. But it wasn’t. I knew that we could smile and laugh all we wanted and that everything will seem okay because that’s how the picture was painted, but truthfully, everyone is far and distant and preoccupied. Nobody had to say it; I could just see it in their eyes. No matter what’s happening and whoever did what, we’re still all family and that’s what’s important. Even if someone did something and screwed up big time, we’re still supposed to be there and support each other.

It makes me so sad when you have someone you used to be able to talk to for hours on end. And then suddenly they’re gone and you’re gone and you can’t even figure out what the hell happened. Really, what did happen? Did I upset you? Are you too busy? I’m sorry, I want to fix whatever I did so that we could be on the same page again, but I don’t know what I’m supposed to say. Maybe that’s the problem.. Maybe the issue isn’t that we’ve drifted, but that it’s because I’m the one who isn’t trying to talk to you. I’ll try one day and we’ll see how it goes.
PERFECT…have you ever been called that word? Have you ever used that word to describe another human being? There’s just something about calling someone “prefect” that gets SO much on my nerves. I mean sure, I understand that you care about and like someone so much that their flaws are flawless to you, but do you really have to use perfect?

Again, another short post. My apologies. I just really really cannot write anything; I would start and then get distracted and then just slop this together. I'm honestly not proud of it at all, but I'd rather post it than not. Maybe one day when I finally figure out why I'm blogging or what I need to blog about (cause I know there's something, I just can't put my finger on it), it'll be good.