Rainstorms and Change

In life you need things that'll bring you down so that you can recognize what you need to lift you up again. Everything can't just be about sunshine and rainbows and cupcakes. Sometimes we need sad things in our life so that they can remind us how GOOD everything else was before. We always take everything for granted, even the sunshine and nice weather. And we need things like the rain and storm to give us a kick in the rear and remind us that having the sun out is a blessing! God chose to give us life and the sun and clouds and the beautiful air, yet we act as if it's expected to be given to us. It's not!

If there were no pain, there would be no compassion. If there were no hate, there would be no love. And though it's not nearly as important as love or compassion, if there were no storms, there would be no sun. I also mean that if there was not the rain, we wouldn't be as appreciative of the warm weathers as we are now. If today was sunny, everyone would just go along their day and not give a care about it, as if it doesn't even matter that it's nice out. But once the clouds come in and the skies turn gray, everyone's suddenly paying attention. We need to pay attention to these wonderful things that are given to us. And not just weather, but other things like family, friends, people who care for us and so forth.

I haven't been blogging much and that's because I've been doing really well with homework first and computer later. Except for today.. :P But the other reason is that I'm sometimes just not ready to write anything. I don't feel the blogging vibe, and honestly today I still don't feel it, but I figured that it's been 20 days into the new year that I ought to write SOMETHING.

School's been okay, I've been hanging out with people that I hang out with during PE. It's not exactly what I hoped for (when is it ever?) but it's a lot better and that's all I can ask for right now. I had become best friends with Alvin (or so I thought) but then something caused us to drift and now we hardly talk or anything. That's not how it was supposed to be. But I guess it doesn't bother me that much cause he has a girlfriend and me and Alvin live in completely different worlds, so I understand.

I was recently thinking about how much I missed everybody. Gosh, I know, my whole entire blog like revolves around this topic, but if I keep thinking about it, then that's good. I just can't believe how much everything's changed in the past 6 months. It's insane; people who were best friends for 9 years hardly talk to each other anymore; people who were in a relationship for 3 years are broken up; people who used to talk 24/7 now get lucky if they talk once a month. Everyone's drifting from one another and I knew promises to keep in touch wouldn't be kept. In our bodies, DNA has to be replicated because our cells are always dividing. Sometimes when the DNA gets replicated, there are screw ups, mistakes, mutations. Sometimes the mutation changes nothing in our bodies and everything goes back to normal. But then other times, there's so much that changes that your body can't possibly do anything to fix it. It's called a frameshift mutation. Our friendships are slowing becoming frameshift mutations. Meaning that the little mistakes are shifting our whole entire relationships and everything's changing and we won't be able to do anything about it. We'll no longer be perfect circular red blood cells, but we'll be sickle celled. I don't want us to be that way cause that's not how we're supposed to be.

Everybody says "Oh my gosh I know we have to catch up!" But do they ever? No. They just expect the other person to call, yet the other person's expecting the same thing. And in the end, nothing gets done. i'm sorry, I'll continue this post another day cause it's 1am and I need sleeep!

"BE THE CHANGE THAT YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD."